Teach us to number our days,
that we may get a heart of wisdom. (Ps. 90)
It’s almost 2019. Another New Year’s Eve, and another New Year’s Day to reflect on the speed of time passing and the resolutions we want to make for the new year. Lose weight, keep the house cleaner, work a little harder, better myself a little more…. year after year.
And as I get older, it seems like the holidays get closer and closer to each other. High school and my childhood get further and further behind, and I keep waiting for that year when I feel like a “grownup,” every bit as capable as my parents were when they were my age.
But if I’m honest with myself, I am a grownup. I have a husband I love, a home I’m making ours, and a job I look forward to. I have a retirement plan and a will. And now, more than ever, I feel the call to number my days.
It is not a groundbreaking revelation that our time here on earth is short, but as the years go faster and the seasons change quicker, I am appreciating the time I have, and regretting the time I’ve lost. Time I’ve spent on failed relationships, hobbies that wouldn’t last, and idle entertainment.
So if I had to make one Resolution for 2019, it would be to number my days. Number my minutes, number my time, because it is precious, short, and not guaranteed to last.
Let me give more time away, and spend more time on what matters.
For two years now, I’ve read the Bible through every 4 months, but how many hours have I spend on Netflix? I’ve read dozens of books, but spent hundreds of hours scrolling through social media.
If I am “smoking what I’m selling,” as my Pastor would put it, I need to be much more intentional about how I spend my time. Am I building my kingdom, or His? In another 30 years, will I be proud of the life I’ve lived, knowing that I spent my time well?
So here is my intentional to-do list for 2019:
Pray. Worship. Seek.
Pray more than I ever have, believing that God wants me to “pour my heart like water.” (Lam. 2:19)
Worship with abandon, as a living, grateful sacrifice. (Rom. 12:1)
Seek to know God deeper every day. Live hungrily for God’s Word.
And if I’m honest, probably try to lose some weight.